So I haven't written anything about pregnancy # 3, except that it's happening, and that it's a girl. Time has literally flown (even though the pregnancy seems like its dragging on, go figure), and so I better write something now before I can't remember anything anymore.
- First let me say that this was not a planned baby. In fact it went completely against the plans. So it's really been hard to come to terms with being pregnant and figuring out how this baby will fit in. And because of this it's taken me a while to get excited about it all. Unlike the other two, I can go a week without thinking once about being pregnant, I just totally forget. With the boys I was thinking about it every minute I was awake. It's so strange. Granted I am really busy so don't have time to sit and dream about a fetus. But the increasing belly has meant it's become alot more real to me.
- Morning sickness this time was a mix of the last 2 pregnancies. I would have a week like with Malachi where I just felt fine, a little queezey if I didn't eat. And then I'd have a week of Vili where everything that went in came straight back out again and I couldn't get out of bed. Lasted about 17ish weeks. Not cool.
- I have heart burn this time, which I've never had before which was not a very pleasant experience. And why they call it heart burn I have no idea. It's more like throat burn.
- Kicking with this girl is none existent. The first time I felt her move was at 20 weeks. And it's not kicking, more just a gentle roll. The one and only time she's actually kicked was when Tui has his hand on her, trying to feel her move. She put on a real show for him. My boys, on the other hand, had perfected 4 different kinds of kung fu before 20 weeks. So different.
- Food wise it's been really good. The same likes/dislikes as the last 2 times, hate dairy and sugar, love salt and fish - both completely out of character for me normally. No real cravings. Although, I have developed food obsession. If I so much as hear the name of a food, like "hot chocolate" I can not be satisfied with anything else, and I just HAVE to have one. Even if its blazing hot outside. I get really insane about it actually. Luckily that hasn't happened much. Again like always I had to eat every hour for the first 4 months, otherwise I'd be sick, which has meant some serious weight gain. I hate it. I had just gotten back to pre-vili weight, on my way to pre-malachi and hello.
- Emotionally it's been so much better then the other times. With Malachi I was a mess, but this time, you couldn't tell from my moods that I was pregnant (check with Tui, I'm not making it up!). Which is a relief. Life with 2 toddlers and a husband who works 20hr shifts is so up and down any way, without any hormones thrown in. Hopefully it's a sign that she won't be an emotional rollercoaster of a child......
- Now the whole 'its a girl' thing. It's no secret I wanted 6 boys, no girls. And I truly have struggled with my feelings of disappointment (for lack of a better word) that it wasn't a boy. All I could think about when I heard the word 'girl' was cattiness, grudges, emotions, drama. Of course I know that's stereotyping and irrational, but that's what I thought. I have 4 brothers, I relate to boys so much better, I'm all for the whole punch-you-in-the-face-then-we're-over-it aspect of boys. But a month or so ago one of Malachi's teachers had a baby girl and brought her into school and when I saw her I thought how sweet and innocent and precious she was. And I cried. Right in front of everyone. And right then I felt like having this little girl truly was a blessing. Although I still can't bring myself to buy any clothes for her. I think pink is the most horrid color ever, closely followed by (DONT READ THIS LEEYEN) lilac. So I hope she likes blue....
- Daily naps and being in bed by 9pm are a must. Thank goodness for children who still take naps, at the same time, who allow this to happen. My iron has been super super low this time so that hasn't helped, and mentally I've had so much going on, with our trips, our move, family stuff. I've felt pretty drained. But again, I'm blessed with 2 of the cruiseist kids ever, who really take care of themselves. They're awesome.
It's a bit daunting to think that in 3 months we will have another baby. That we will no longer be able to take a kid each. I'm sure that life with 3 kids will be a big adjustment. But Malachi and Tui are so excited about this little girl coming that it's hard to think much about that side of it. Malachi talks about his "sister baby" multiple times every day, asking if she's big enough to come out yet, when is she coming out, can we go to the hospital now so she can be born, can he hold her when she comes out, can he change her nappy. And Vili now enjoys lifting my top up to show people his "bubba". I don't doubt that they're going to be great big brothers for her, and that she'll be loved so much by them she may drown in it.
But here's hoping for a speedy, natural birth with no complication, no interventions, and a healthy, beautiful little baby girl (with green eyes and black curly hair.....). :)
